A lot of times when I am in a certain space I notice the emotion the space gives me. In my two spaces I have amplified feelings of comfort, peace, distress, and sorrow. Employing plaster, molds, wood, jigsaws, and sanders, I am representing the nature found living in the suburbs and riding on a subway. In my work I wanted to exemplify the emotions I feel in these spaces.
Being in the suburbs I feel comfort and peace. Being able to find a quiet spot with a beautiful view is easy. Whether it be when the flowers are in full bloom or when the trees are bare, I always like to take some time to enjoy the space I live in and reflect on my life. As I now inhabit the subway system, I notice this ride gives me distress and sorrow. The tight spaces give me anxiety and claustrophobia at times.
Although these emotions are represented as separate entities in my art they are interchangeable between the spaces. In the past year I had to deal with the death of two friends. These two deaths made the comfort and peace in the suburbs disintegrate and brought distress and sorrow to myself and my community.
This emotion is represented by the bare branches and plaster roses. I wanted to show a juxtaposition between the idea of nature always being looked at as beautiful and alive, versus unpleasant and perishable. The flowers also represent the idea of visiting the dead and bring flowers as a sign of respect, remembrance, and mourning. The branches are set up in a way that it looks like two hands of a clock in relation to the wooden tracks. This is a delineation of time or life cycle.
The wooden tracks are a toy-like representation. Commonly thought of as a young boys toy, the tracks are supposed to be a representation of the innocence in the young death of the boys. We all know that death is inevitable, but the timing of death is unknown.
Laying on top of the tracks are plaster subway cars are in the shape of a casket to represent the feeling of enclosed spaces while riding on a subway. There are two cars to represent two deaths, and they are larger than scale to show the weight the deaths had on my life.
This work is supposed to be a representation of life and death. I want the viewer to have an ominous feeling when reflecting on my work, but also a sense of peacefulness. Within death there is this gloominess that is followed by a tranquil understanding that the deceased will always be with you in memory.